The Rejection.

Today is the 23rd of June 2006... Yesterday was d most hoorrrrrrrrrrible day of my entire life...!!!!!!! It was susi's pit n i SPOILT the whole thing....!! sum more in front of her mom... I really did not xpect things 2 turn out tat way as i NEVER EVER felt like wat i felt yesterday...!! I'm really such an idiot..!!!!!!!!! The more i tried 2 control it, the worst it gets... they come n go.... n when they come, i really² couldn't control it...!!!!! Y must tis happen 2 me...???? Y must all the bad things only happen 2 me...!!! If yesterday susi's mom don't have at least sumthing... OH MY...!!!! I just don't know y must i b brought 2 tis world...!! N susi i'm really really really really sorie bout yesterday...!!! I really can't forgive myself 4 wat i did...!!! I'm the type of person who hates when sumone's mom knows that i smoke n wat else if it's a alcohol...!!! If only i did not ton....!!!! y y y y y y..????? I really hope that i can overcome all this.... But i don't think so that i can.... I really² hate myself 4 tis.... SuSi: If u're reading tis i'm REALLY REALLY sorie... N plzzzz tell bdk² mush tat i'm so0 sorie....!!!