2day went to school... didn't study as the school celebrates total defence day... i came to school as per normal... n many people kept asking me what's wrong with me... can they really tell that i'm sad...??? i told all of them that i didn't have enough sleep... n had to pretend to have fun or they will keep on asking me... 1st thing in the morning got pulled out to the front by the principal during flag raising for not singing the anthem... oh my... then did a few activities in class.. i wasn't interested but i can't show a bad attitude towards my other friends so i just pretended that i was having fun too.... for the 1st time painted a wall and i felt that i did it well... i painted the whole of the back wall myself... and a LITTLE bit of help here n there... it was tiring but i hate to stop doing something halfway but mdm linah kept asking me to stop as there's not enough time...

These are the friends that i've hurt... i really want to say sorry.. after looking at all these, i went back to the emotional state... but i still don't get it y one of them still have to react that way just now... the one that i've hurt the most said that things are over... we've talked n it's the past already... the one i didn't hurt reacted like i did it to her... if u want to react that way then it's fine with me... i'll just leave u guys alone k..???!! so that way u'll be happy... in case u don't know who u are, i'll elaborate more k.... u are the person who i wanted to 'salam' but u didn't even look at me...!!! everyone salam me even the person i've hurt most...!!! what kind of shit are u doing...??? i know that u hate me since last time.. it's just that i don't care... some people told me before... so what the hell k... i treated u so well... when u cried i was there... when u had problems i was there too... i know it's not all the time but i was there for a few times... but now.. i totally wash my hands off u...

i've given everything up just to be with u guys... i did my best to stick with just u guys and got called 'sombong' by alot of people... i was actually willing to give up almost everything just to change as i promised with one of u... this is already a different year... i've put all my past behind... but problems just kept on popping up... and i wouldn't want any of u to get hurt... besides, one of u seems to hate me so much so i'll just leave u guys alone k..... i wouldn't want that person to always be unhappy bcoz of my presence... Once again, i would like to say sorry to all of u... especially to the one i hurt the most...

but before i finish, i want to say that i didn't hate u alot... just a few times.. not all the times.. or else i wouldn't send u home from hospital, i wouldn't help u some times, i wouldn't treat u to 'so called' bowling, i wouldn't wait under ur block for so long while u get ready... i'm not trying to say anything bad in case u get the wrong point... not to 'ungkit'... i just don't want u to think that i hate u alot... i don't hate u anymore... it was just last year...