It was hard.. I had to leave but i still want them.. Who doesn't.. You brought them up like really brought them up... Then leave them.. Sakit eh hati.. But i can't always tahan the same things happening over2 and over2.. Will they ever realise that i'm being so stress bcoz of them.? I'm not trying to say that everyone in the group in giving me problems but it's more like u guys taking turns to give me problem... To you guys kn.. Mcm funfair g2.. I cannot tahan already tau.. My hair gets more curly.. WTF. Anyways.. I do love the times together ah..


The past 2 days i've been thinking.. Ever since the fight.. Very deep thinking.. I almost don't care about you guys anymore.. I already gave up.. But i just can't stop thinking of you guys lor.. It's like you guys are already my family.. Kiwak.. Emo eh.. Tapi somehow true laaa.. Haizzzz... Then i realised like what my friends(west) said.. This is just a test to see if we're strong.. I know we are even though we are kental in dance.. At least mcm entertaining pe... Back to the topic.. K i was really hurt on that night.. NO ONE EH.. came to me.. And i was alone waiting at the playground for a friend to come to me but none of them came.. I was sad and i'm still very sad over that.. It really hurts so deep that i cried non stop eh.. Mcm non stop hits g2... Back to seriousness.. Renni got scolded bcoz of me.. I wasted her time and she went home late bcoz of me... She got like scolding eh.! I'm so sorry renni.. Really sorry...!! You were there for me and i will always remember that...!


Then the story about him.! The FU*KING 2 years crush.! Like WTF.! I hate you so so much.! Somehow i'm happy that you did that.. It finally made me hate you... Kinda thanx but i hate you.! You were so mean siaa..!


Then thought that i liked someone else but it turned out to be a minor crush.. Which is like kinda over already.? I guesss... Anyways.. Cleared my mind yesterday by tonning at woodlands with Ayeen, Fie, Alif, Aimm, Mell, Wawan... They were fun..! hehehehe... I'm not b*tchy rite Alif.. See.. Mayb at 1st look ah.. Hahaha.. It was nice knowing that you guys are there for me.


Btw.. Doesn't mean that i like being with another group doesn't mean that i don't want you guys anymore... I want and i want you guys to change.. Let's just take it a break from all the havoc..