21st April 2008
I soooo do not wish for this to happen... I miss you.. It's hard laaa.. Maner tk.. I was so happy when i'm with you.. It's like nothing else matters when u're around.. We had lots of fun and laughter.. When u're sad, i tried to make you happy. :) And at the same time, i'm happy.. I enjoyed every minute with you.. Except the parts when u start talking about the 2 other people.. Other than that, i'm so happy.. I wish i could just b a bit*h and have no feelings.. aiyaaa.. C laa.. Now i'm in pain.. Anyways, i've been forcing myself to sleep but i just can't sleep early.. The temptation to hear your voice is like SUPER high.. House phone is just beside me.. Waiting 4 me to press those buttons and call you and ask you if you have eaten and so on.. The temptation is there man~.! But i can't.! i have to make sure i don't love him.. How is that.? I don't know.. Can't control love.. It will just disappear on it's own.. Can't sleep.. Let's see.. How did i fall for you..


1st time i met you.
It was at night.. I was with Renni and Faruq.. Went to Yishun to pass Mael something.. Saw you.. Thought u were straight.. Hehe.. Then saw the way u acted.. Then i went.. Ooo HOT~ Asked for your name.. But no feelings then laa.. Baru jumpe mah.. This is not love at 1st sight~..

2nd time i met you.
This time it's early.. It was at Tampines. Your favourite place.. haha. You had your hardcore practice for danceworks.. We weren't talking to each other yet.. I went to the other dome with my group to practice our item for Smack Dat.. Bla bla blaa.. While practicing, u came with Ayeen and Wardah.. U guys just came back from buying makan.. That was when i had an eye for you.. Watch you practice.. Like wahh~ Wanted to thon with you guys but didn't wanted to disturb your hardcore practice.. Came back the next morning to meet Ayeen and Fie 2 go off somewhere*don't remember where* and u also going home.. And that was when i finally talk to you.. You asked what are we taking.. And i answered "cab. Nk join.?" Then u said.. Something like "it's ok. I'm taking the bus home." This is not yet the part i fell for you..

3rd time i met you.
It was at RP.. You had to finish up your assignments. And i was bored so i decided to disturb you.. Sat beside you.. And starting commenting your edits.. Remember.? Hahaha.. Kacau2 here and there.. That was when we 1st started talking like friends.. Then left RP but your assignments weren't done yet.. Ooohh.. Then u like to disturb me.. "Andreas like Ma____~" haha. cute. Then tonned at woodlands.. Bla bla blaa.. Then at around 2am u left us.. To go Wawan's dome to find electricity for your laptop to complete your assignments.. After you completed your assignments, you came back and met me Ayeen and Fie at titanic.. Then we all went home... Not yet in love..

The day i fell for you.
It was a day when i had practice at woodlands.. The dome behind the Civic Centre.. KS and me were having our practice for the Smack Dat competition.. You were there with him.. You wore a red t-shirt which states "you could be mine"*something like that* and white skinny jeans.. This is the part.. We were practicing then the police came and chased us away.. We then went to find another spot.. Which was at the basketball court.. Went to buy makan and when we returned, he was asleep.. You were awake.. So asked you to makan with us.. Then we talked and talked.. It was fun.. Like it was really fun.. That basketball court was the place where i started to like you.. Awww~ Shut up.!

Then closer to Smack Dat.
You came for one of our practices at Istana Park. I was so happy when i saw you.. But didn't show it.. Duhh~ Malu laa.. I was supposed to talk to you.. Mcm you know.. Like layan you.. Argghh hard to xplain.. But yaa.. Malu~.. hehe.. Then u said "A sejuk giler eh.." Then someone said to you "Do you need me to warm you up"*something like that* then u replied "nvm nvm.. I have andreas to warm me up." Don't know if u remember that ah.. But i do.. heheh.. I was like so aww~ Then the big HE came and you went off with him.. :( Then it was Mael's chalet.. Wanted you to come so badly but u can't come due to some family problem.. Met u at Sengkang on the day of Smack Dat competition.. Fetch you from Sengkang MRT station.. I still remember.. All the way walking to the CC, you were like complaining about HIM.. You wanted us to kick he's sorry ass remember.?? Walked under the HOT SUN.! haha.. Then make up.. You did my make up..! Heart was like pumping so fast when u were sitting in front of me doing my face.. Then u left early.. :(

Then it was the bishi and sick period.
Remember how you got the word bishi.? Hehehe.. I do.! You said this sentence very confidently "I'm bishi when i'm sleepy.".. hahah.. That was when we were on our way back from makan at Marine Parade.. The pit was like super fun.. That was when we had our 1st huggies*and the last? picture.. such a waste. I look so buruk in that picture.. Then u got sick.. Then we went over to your place.. It was supposed to be us 3 taking care of you.. But ended up me alone taking care of you.. heheh.. Ayeen dgn Fie da KO.. That was the day i didn't smoke for like 8hours.?? Thanx to you.. haha.. Then we went off.. And you got scoldings.. Sorry AUTA KEL*** :(

The day you took your MC.
Haha.. Met you at Woodlands interchange.. You looked so super sick and tired.. So we went to sengkang to go visit the doctor and take our money from the CC.. Took 161. And hahah.. Stopped at the wrong bus stop.. Yala.. Thanx to me.. You also dunno ok.. At least i know how to walk to the polyclinic.. *hmph* Everytime at sengkang confirm must walk in the hot sun eh.. hahah.. Kesian die~ da sakit abeh kene jln panas2.. Then finally reached the polyclinic.. Got your doctor no. then Fie and me went off to the CC.. Came back and saw you upstairs.. Went up and saw u sitting alone waiting for the results.. Just finished being sucked.. haha.. sounds wrong.. accompanied you till the results were out. The injection was painful rite.? i know.... Can tell.. Ewww~

Arrgghh.! Mother nagging already.. It's only 2am.. Ok~ kinda late.. yaya.. 2 be continued..


22nd April 2008
Okies.. Where did i stop..

The other days were like all the same.. Happy all the way~ We were like all the way happy.! Laughing.. Disturbing people.. More laughing.. Hey i kinda miss it.. But.. Now.. It's different already.. You're no longer single.. Haizzz~ I don't know.. I have to not love you rite.? And just like become friends.. I don't think that's possible.. Maybe i should just wait till you're single again.. Which is like.? I dunno..

Anyways.. Didn't contact you 4 like ONE WHOLE DAY yesterday.. You msged me but i ignored.. Regarding Sue's no.. But at least i asked her to contact you.. So.. Yaa.. Can't deny that it was hard forcing myself to not call/msg you.. But it had to be done right.? Then just now at 1:42pm, You msged me.. Saying that you miss me.. Well.. Yaa.. I miss you too.! Like duhh~ It took me like 1 hour to decide if to call you or not.. Coudn't control it anymore and decided to call you.. haha.. But sadly. No answer.. A few hours later, you replied.. In turns out that you were sleeping.. *buat suspense je*.. And we are back to talking with each other again.. Now waiting for you to finish talking with him then call you again.? WAIT.?! What am i doing.??! K.. That's it.. No noo... I'm not calling you or msging you anymore.. Besides, you have him..