So. Went to school. Haven't been in the mood for anything. Classmates getting on my nerves. Track and field meet will be in 2 days time. I will be participating in 400m and 4x400m. Hope that i can go far. I can't deny that i'm afraid. I don't know the standard in this new school. Am also afraid that i've lost abit of my stamina. I'm finding for crew members. I need dancers staying in the East*if possible*. Guys(prefer)*don't worry i won't eat*. Girls also can. But not too many. Must have commitment. Leave me a tag if you want.


Just finished watching a show on Ch 8. It's a sad show about love. It's like this person love that person but sadly that person loves someone else. Very reality for me. Wth. But the one on Ch 8 is more complicated. The show is called Rhythm Of Life. Watch it if you're free. It's kinda nice. Then came across a friend's blog where he's talking about love. He said something about "close your eyes and say it in your mind. Who is the 1st name that comes to your mind.?" So yeah. I don't think i should continue. I need the old me back. To make me painless again. I'm in alot of pain now. Struggling here. There isn't a time i won't think of you. F*CK.! What am i talking about.!


I have to admit. I was waiting a whole day for your msg yesterday. Then in the middle of the night u msged me. It took me a while to think. Should i reply.? Should i just ignore the msg.? Then i came to a conclusion. Replied. Asked you to delete me. You went against. You claimed that you don't want to lose me as a friend. You don't get it do you.? Maybe i wasn't too honest in the recent post and was too nice. I don't want to be just a friend to you. I hate you alot for putting me aside and choosing someone else. FYI you've lost me. Why i'm doing this.? Cause i feel foolish waiting for something that will never happen. But why do i feel like something is holding you back.? What is that something.? Or is it just a stupid feeling.? Questions in my head. These questions makes me think. Not letting me concentrate on anything else.

Maybe later you'll realise.