~09th June 08~
I think that now is the right time to go. You ever once said. If it determines my happiness then you will not be mad at me for not talking to you. As you want me to be happy.? So yeah.. I'm gonna move on now. I stayed a lil longer bcoz i see that you had problems and i don't want you to be sad and alone.. Now, I think things are better between the both of you.. And those quiet moments. You kept asking me why right. It's bcoz i'm thinking. Did lots of thinking. Especially yesterday. And don't you ever dare say bcoz i'm good already then i 4get you. Always like to do tat. It's not like that ok. Always like to give me that guilty moment. It was great dancing with you.. Hope that you've improved after joining wif me. *As you always claim*. That drawing on your wrist. Pretending was hard. All i had to do is just pretend that nothing hurts me. Don't wanna make you feel like you did something wrong. Since that now we're no longer dancing together, it should be the right time to continue from where i stopped. sorry for those bit*hy moments.


~10 June 08~
Was about to go for practice. You msged me. Asking me to go online. Actually, at that time, i was online. It's just tat i've blocked you, again. Then you said you need someone to talk to. And as usual. I can't bear to leave you sad and alone. So i did unblock you again. It's hard. So.. Am i suppose to leave you again.? Do i.?


~11 June 08~
And so we had abit of crisis the night b4. Gosh.! Moment of anger.

Ppl are gossiping. Saying this and that, well get the facts right.! The thing between me n him started when he was still single. So don't you even dare go round saying anything bad about me. You wanna know more about me.? Talk to me urself. Don't listen to other ppl. And for your info ppl, i never did try to break them up. Seriously. And in fact i did try to make things better among them. Weird but yeah. I guess i just wanna see him happy rather than sad.

Anyways, you're at ur lowest point of time. All i could do is just make u happy. Trys to cheer you up. I may sound like i have a motive but honestly, nope.! I do wanna c ppl being happy. Not just you but anyone. And consoling you regarding this matter is hard. Real hard. Hearing you talk about the one you love. Hard indeed but wanting you to be happy is the aim.

And gosh! I'm suppose to move on by now. I'm not suppose to be thinking of you anymore. There's this saying "better to be safe than sorry". I wanna get away b4 i get hurt again. I do. But i can't let you be alone at this point of time. Maybe when u're in better terms wif him then i'm gone. Maybe i'll just give one more time being there for you. To my friends, no worries. I know what i'm doing. I'm just giving him one more k. You don't expect me to leave him now*ok maybe you do*. But he's in he's worst position. Save your words aite. I know you guys meant well by saying that he will not be there for me or things like i'll get hurt. I do know that will happen but right now, i'm really in a difficult position.


~12 June 08~
Let's see.. How do i start.? I lied. Yes i lied to you. And i can't keep it from you. It just feels bad. I don't have any relatives living in TPY. Errmm. Sorry.? I just didn't want u 2 feel alone at this point of time. You kept on saying that you wish that you will get amnesia. Gosh.! Who wouldn't care.?? Why does this always has to happen.? Everytime when i'm about to just move on, things will happen. You will be sad and thus not allowing me to go. What's this? Am i not suppose to leave? But i'm afraid. Very. Maybe i'll wait till you settle down then i'll think about moving on. But when will that be.? Coz i really need 2 try 2 move on b4 i get hurt again.. Right now, i'm just gonna try my best 2 be a friend that u need. I'm gonna pretend that somethings you say doesn't hurt. And i'm gonna try to fix back their relationship. Sounds weird but yeah...



~14 June 08~
Well, i think it can't be fixed.? I think it's just best that i stay out of this. Gosh! i really don't know what the hell i'm talking about. You're sick. Go get some rest.


~15 June 08~
I'm thinking of leaving. Maybe now is the right time.? So yes. I'm leaving. Maybe i've been causing too many problems. Yes i know. I'm in between a relationship. But HEY.! this thingy happens b4 he's unSINGLE. So don't go thinking i'm some stealer. Yeah. I'm leaving. It's hard. But i do want to get over this 'THINGY'.. I want to leave badly. Wait.! Do i.? Do i wanna leave.? So gd bye.. I'm leaving.


~17 June 08~
It turned out that.. I DIDN'T leave u.. Hahah. I just can't leave you. And i'm definitely NOT leaving u in this condition. I won't wanna lose someone like you. I had a nice time yesterday. :) And ppl, you wanna say watever you want then go ahead. Bcoz i don't care. I don't mind losing anyone. But not you. Oh.! One more thing, ppl wanna gossip, go ahead. But don't let me find out, cos i'm so gonna B*TCH you.!