I hate you. I hate you alot. I've tried and tried to keep everything. But i really can't. I kinda let it out yesterday talking to Wardah and Ayeen. Standard routine. Me crying with them trying to wipe my tears and calm me down.


I want this feeling to go away. I don't wanna love you anymore. I hate you so much that i feel like killing you. You are an asshole. I'm still trying to make my feelings go away. It's been months and i think it's just hopeless. Why must i always go through this procedure.? Arggh.! I want life.! I want love.! I want someone that i can hug.! Someone who i can talk to in the middle of the night. Someone who is willing to do anything for me. Someone who is able to spend time with me. Someone who will love me back.


It ain't happening. For my whole 19 years, i've NEVER tasted real love.

Will it ever happen.?
When will it be.?
How long am i suppose to keep waiting.?
Why me.?