The Rejection.

Things have been kinda _______less ____out ___.

Turning into an alcoholic. Been drinking more n more. I hate this. Yesterday night had a rough night drinking alone in my cozy room. And released alot of pain that i kept inside me for a looooongg time. Not just to you but to many other people as well. I felt more happy after that "so called" conversation we had. I don't know why i said all that but yeah, it made me felt better. :)

I'm still in that zone. Not willing to leave. My instincts are not letting me go. It is deep but i do have to remind myself. Those fairytales will not happen in the real life. So, just move on.

Apparently, i'm drinking alone again 2night. No one wanna drink wif me. :'(

I don't know what I've done

Or if I like what I've begun

But something told me to run

And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head

Little voices whispering

That I should go and this should end

Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you

All I know is that I should

And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you

All I know is that I should

'Cos she will love you more than I could

She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white

That it was wrong or it was right

But you ain't leaving without a fight

And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you

All I know is that I should

And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you

All I know is that I should

'Cos she will love you more than I could

She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call

You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all

But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you

This is what I have to do

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you

All I know is that I should

And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you

All I know is that I should

'Cos she will love you more than I could

She who dares to stand where I stood

Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood.