Those voices in my head.. 2 diff point of views. The before view and the after. I just feel like taking it all out.

Before View(1)
After View(2)

1. My the number 1 guy in the "list" that i should never be close with.
2. I just wanna be close with you everyday and night.


1. He's a freaking playboy.
2. Maybe i can change him. It may take time.


1. He's not your type.
2. Type doesn't matter to me now. If i so happened to like you then it will be. :(


1. He's NOT HOT.
2. He's CUTE.


1. I'll never do anything with him.
2. I did.


1. Why is everyone crazy over him.?
2. I'm crazy over you.


1. I dislike you.
2. I like you.


There's more actually. You know the feeling when you just have alot of things to say but when you're facing the computer screen and typing, it just leaks away.

This feeling s*cks.! It's worst than worst. I never felt this way. Maybe coz i never went thru this kind of road before. This is different. I want this to happen. Will it? I'm not gonna care what people would say. As long as i'm with you.

There's a reason for my piercing. I just felt so feelingless inside after hearing that. I was so down that i did something i would never do. Yes i've always wanted the piercing on my eyebrown since i was 15 but i'm freaking afraid of sharp objects piercing thru.

As my days goes by, i'm starting to overcome more and more of my fears. Which kinda makes me wonder. Am i getting more heartless to not really have fears?