Im falling for you again. The 3rd time falling for you. The 1st 2 times i backed off coz you weren't single. Attached with my friend. So i had to force myself to not like you. Then this time round, i thought u were single. But i got just enough proof to know that you and another are already in the process. I thought you weren't contacting anyone. That was why i did "that". I may seem like those typical cheap person but i'm not. I'll only do "that" with the person i have feelings for. I will not just do "that" with anyone. I wanted to commit. But for what now.? There's nothing to commit to. Arrgghh. The past few days with you was happiness for me. Just being next to you puts a smile on my face. Until yesterday.. Yup. And i have a feeling tonite is going to be worst than yesterday. I wouldn't actually show that im upset or so-called 'jealous' but i really couldn't take it anymore. I think i'm just going to be there to get my things and maybe stay for a while then off i go home. Give you time with ........ And FYI, this ain't the 1st time i'm blogging bout you.

"Never Ever"
(feat. Young Jeezy)

[Talking: Ciara]
Yea
Listen
If he don’t love you by now
He ain’t gon never love you
Let’s Go

[Hook: Pow La Don]
Throw yo' hands up in the air
If ya know he love ya
Tell the DJ play this song right here
If ya know he love ya
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
It don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya

[Chorus: Ciara]
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

[Verse 1:]
I know you think that I just be trippin' on ya
Boy you see, this ain't how I normally be
But I can't help this jealousy
Ooh it's taking over me, ooh I'm falling way to deep
Without you by my side I feel like I can't eat or sleep

[Pre-Chorus:]
But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I don’t wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself

[Chorus:]
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

[Verse 2:]
Baby, I can't help but fantasize
Wondering what it might be like
You and I sound so right
But I'ma let it go tonight,
Ain't nothin' coverin' my eyes
Ain't gonna see it more than twice
I get it, I got it
Baby, baby

[Pre-Chorus:]
But I, got to come down to earth, I don't wanna
But I, gotta let you go, but baby I don’t wanna
And I, I gotta see, that you and me, ain't meant to be
That's why I tell myself

[Chorus:]
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you
If that boy don't love you by now
He will never ever, never ever love you
He will never ever, never ever love you

[Verse 3: Young Jeezy]
Alright, alright, alright, okay...
I see ya point, I must admit
I grind, I grind, I grind all day
This paper's what I'm tryna get
Now normally when I'm paper chasing, I be having tunnel vision
And if it's really like that lady, just turn on ya television
And there go Young, I said there go Young, you tryna get it did
Just know I gets it done, she love the I cheat
She love the way I move, I sha,
I show up to her shows ‘bout a 100 goons
Its blacks this, black that, black car, black flags
I really hope that's money that ya'll got off in them black bags
808's & heartbreaks, states who puts in interstates
Giving me a bad vibe, guess I'm just a bad guy

[Hook: Ciara (Young Jeezy)]
Throw yo' hands up in the air
(If ya know he love ya)
Tell the DJ play this song right here
(If ya know he love ya)
Let, let, let, let me see you 2-step
(If ya know he love ya)
It don't matter if you by yourself
(If ya know he love ya)

[Ciara:]
If ya know he love ya
Let me see you 2-step
If ya know he love ya
Don't matter if you by yourself
If ya know he love ya
Throw yo' hands up in the air
DJ play this song right here



Then the other you. I like you but you show little interest in me. It's like.. I dunno laa. I guess im just a rejected item. Always rejected by the ones that i have feelings for.

K now, gtg. Be back later. Maybe....
My parents are fighting again.!!!! SO NOISY.!! And that step father put the blame on me.! Everything me.! That's y i hate gg home.!!!