As much as i want to move on, i can't. I just have to accept it.

Yes, we all do want to move on from our bad love life. But as much as all of us want that, we just can't. We're still deeply in love. Just gotta accept that.

I'm still freaking stuck in this situation. Feeling real down and all while i'm pretty sure he's out there sleeping around with other people. But yet, the feelings just wouldn't go away.

I just have to keep on saying this to myself. "He's just not into me."

So anws, i did a slight research as i couldn't sleep which i'm supposed to by now.. So i asked around. "How do i get over someone that i love.?" The answers that different people gave was quite amazing tho.

There's the sweet guy - "I've went through that b4. It will take time to get over him and you have to move on."

There's the sweet yet trying to show that he's cool guy - "Simple. You can't."

There's the heartless always horny guy - "You have to learn to be heartless."

Then there's me - "You can't get over him unless you're in love with another person." And i think that yeah. I actually helped myself to that question. Well, it is the fact. There's no other way to get over someone you love.

This is really driving me crazzzyyy..!! 'YOU' are the reason for my sleepless nights.. Arrggghh.! How much more complicated can this life of mine get.?! Stupid sh*t.!

And today i'm really pissed off. Especially to those guys who just wanna get into my pants. LET ME GIVE YOU A HINT: YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO ENTER UNLESS I LIKE YOU.! GET IT?? It's like you guys just don't understand when i said i don't want to. Arggh. Dumb guys.. I just realized that there's actually alot.. I MEAN ALOOOTT of horny guys out there.. If you're thinking for a clean fun sex with me, don't even think of adding me anywhere(facebook,msn,watever places).. That is for now tho.. HAH.! Coz i dunno what i'll be like in the future. That famous line is right: "people change."

And to 'you': I'm glad that i didn't gave you my all. Or else i think i would be pretty much crazy by now. But i do miss spending time with you. Badly. Like the past few weeks. But after halloween, it just su*k.! Big time. I think we both had different mind set. I thought.... You thought.. Actually i still dunno what you thought but i have a feeling i know what u thought.. So anws, i do want things to be like normal again.. At least when it's normal, i do get to spend time with you. :D But right now, i just have to get over you. Question is, how.?? Wait. Didn't i just answered that above.?

Shit. I got work in like 1hr 30mins. I haven't even slept. And i'm sooo lazy to work.. can i not.? And just go to sleep.?